The Reality

2 weeks ago I took a pregnancy test on a whim. Really, the way my cycles had been going, I was wasn't expecting a period for another week or so, but I had a few dollar store tests, so I took one. There was the FAINTEST line imaginable. I couldn't decide if it was actually a line, but I didn't want to waste my good test so early. Finally, I decided to call the Dr. and request some blood work. I went in afterschool, but wouldn't know the results until Monday. I took my good digital test on Sunday and got a positive "pregnant" result. I was a ball of emotions. I didn't know whether to be nervous, excited or a mixture of everything. I was nervously optimistic until I got a call from the Dr. on Monday. I was pregnant, but my hormone levels (HCG) were very low, this meant one of two things: I was barely pregnant or I was going to have another chemical pregnancy. Now I was just plain nervous. The Dr. liked my progesterone levels, so I think he was optimistic. I went in for the blood work as planned, but had a lower backache so I didn't know what to think. I wanted to let family know in a special way, but my fears of having to reveal a miscarriage instead of a pregnancy made me panic, so I just called everyone to let them know we needed their prayers because of the blood work. Finally, a call relieved my worries when the blood work came back and my HCG was doubling like expected.

I was pregnant! Praise GOD, He knows the desires of our heart! I'm still not sure of an acutal due date, but when I use online calculators with an average of my last 3 cycles, our baby should be due right around New Year's Day. Justin's hoping for New Year's Eve because he likes the idea of a year long tax deduction. We'll both take whatever we get.

Up until last Friday, I was feeling great and had no real symptoms. Although, this was at times unnerving, it was also nice. Last Friday though, my little baby (in reality my hormones) started sending me a nice reminder that my body is, infact, growing a whole new person. The nausea has been continuous since then and the exhaustion a bit consuming. A GOOD THING, I keep reminding myself! I'm trying to take it day by day and be thankful for this wonderful reminder that a baby is growing in me. I'm also trying to keep my eating under control because last summer I gained 10lbs with Baby Bee that I never lost. I try to cope with the nausea by munching all...day...long. This does help a bit, but probably not as much as it will hurt in the long run. And since my Dr. wants his patients to be on the famous diet that Emily wrote about, I'm sure it won't be pretty at my appt. next week when he weighs me.

In the meantime, please continue to pray that this little one continues to grow and comes out a healthy, happy newborn. And also please pray for the 3 weeks I have left of watching all three kiddos and working. I know I'll have to take it day by day.

I've already called in the troops and CC knows we plan on spending plenty of time at his house. He's even cooking us his famous breakfast tomorrow morning. YUM! I'm sure that'll help with the weigh-in.